-- worthy --

The story is always the same.
I log into instagram & bloglovin. 
I look at tons of women who have it all together & I long for their lives.
I want their perfectly manicured nails.
I want their boyfriend jeans, DSLR cameras, chubby babies, natural beauty products, beach hair.
I want their ministries & their pure perfect hearts, their lovely walks with God. 
I close my eyes and wish for a life worthy of a re-pin on pinterest. 
I wish for a life that's worthy--
but when I open my eyes… I'm still me. 

9 out of 10 days I don't even brush my hair.
My acrylic nails are falling off.
My succulents are dying.
A small child (not my own) wiped his boogers on me today & they're probably still on my blazer.
My job leaves me feeling drained emotionally & physically.
My messy buns look a little too messy & my smokey eye is borderline emo. 
My heart dwells on negative things & my temper is a little too short.
I have to force myself to spend alone time with God & even in those moments… my heart wanders. 

Who I want to be is so far from who I am.

But in the moments of wishing I was someone else
I hear God whisper that I am worthy. 
That this grumpy/messy girl was bought and paid for.
This mess was washed clean. 
Who I am is His.

This is enough. 

--> Sweet Sundays <--

Living in NEPA means I don't have a Whole Foods or Trader Joe's close to me. 
It's depressing. 
My bank account is a lot happier going to local markets & getting fresh produce but there's something so fun about going to whole foods, shopping around, & then getting take out.
A few Sundays (a billion Sundays ago), 
Teeds & I were in Delaware for a worship event 
and on Sunday we decided to run to Whole Foods before heading home. 
Running to Whole Foods turned into shopping & lunch with Taylor's brother and my girlfrannnd. 
I don't get to see my Victoria as often as I'd like so anytime i'm in town, you can bet she's by my side. 
We bothered the boys by gossiping about our lives & shopped around while they held our purses (boys are so useful)  

It's really hard living so far away from my best friends. 
I am thankful for sweet Sunday surprises & friendships that withstand the miles.

xo, Lynn Raye

--> thankful <--

We spent Thanksgiving in our little apartment. 
My parents drove up & we spent the day cooking/watching football. 

I also love spending thanksgiving morning watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. 
I love broadway, so seeing the musical numbers makes the day extra special. 

We sent our extended family selfless so they could feel like they were with us. 
My duck face is so strong. (& ugly)

Daphne slept most of the day… as usual. 

Thanksgiving is one of my favorite holidays because I need the reminder to be thankful.
I know it sounds terrible, but my heart can be quite negative.
I need the reminder.

I am thankful for: 

1. My relationship with Christ.
2. A loving husband.
3. A cuddly puppy that greets me after a long day of work. 
4. Our new(ish) little space. 
5. A job that challenges me to be a better person every single day.
6. My Mommy. 
7. Group Texting. -- some people hate being apart of these but I have been loving my group texts with my family and my PBU buddies. 
8. The little plants that grow inside little pots that hang out in my little apartment. These stupid plants make me soooo happy. Taking care of them is so calming. 

I pray that this thankful heart remains throughout this entire holiday season (&beyond)
What are you thankful for?

Lynn Raye